Hi! VampireFairyWitch left me a comment and I miss her so I'm going to update this on life. I GRADUATED! WOOHOO! No more college for me! I took extra classes so I could graduate a semester early, so now I'm chilling at home. College was overall unsatisfying, punctuated by a few fun friends. I dunno. It was weird. I didn't like being so far from home and my friends back here. My college was a small Christian one, and let's just say that while some teachers were more open-minded than others, it was a little bizarre to hear some opinions that I thought were a little cult-y. It was something like 60-70% girls, so I didn't date much. Literally every guy I had romantic feelings/flirtations with either had girlfriends, fiances, or wives (most of which were concealed). At one point I was a bit too much of a teacher's pet for this young guy. My brain must've been fried or something. He gave me this whole speech about how he'd separate from his wife and implied it would be so I would date him. It was bizarre. I actually really liked him but contented myself with the fantasy of us going out because it would never work in real life. Probably TMI but still. By the end of college I was distancing myself from some of my friends because we all lived off-campus for the most part and didn't see as much of each other. I was on the school paper. I LOVED IT. I got to see my besties pretty much every day because of classes and we were basically giggly little schoolgirls. I was in a couple of shows, mostly student-directed ones. That was vaguely valuable because I met some really awesome people, even if the shows themselves weren't awesome.

I really got into fanvidding, and joined two collab studios! They're really supportive so I made a few online friends that way (one of them is from France! Who would've guessed?). Because of this vidding, I am now obsessively into some new fandoms. Vampire Diaries probably has me the hardest even though I end up yelling at the TV most of the time ("KISS HER YOU FOOL!"). It's somewhat embarrassing, but I have a high tolerance for dramatic shows like that. What else am I watching? Um, "The Challenge: Exes," "Once Upon a Time," "Jersey Shore," and "Modern Family." I've been on a mystery kick recently and have been reading a lot of Agatha Christie. This one book keeps evading me at the library! I'll get it one day... Game-wise, I played Skyrim for approximately a billion hours and am now testing my hand at Uncharted 3. I am terrible at being sneaky. No espionage for me.

The job search is exhausting. I just want to give up most of the time. It's so draining to answer questions about my nonexistent criminal record, desired salary, etc. I've literally lost count as to how many I've applied for. I made it to the top 5 applicants for this one awesome job right by my house but then I didn't get it :'( Lame. I hate waiting for responses. Most of the calls/emails I get are for sketchy-sounding insurance sales. I'm crossing my fingers that something awesome will happen, but in the meantime it's just an endless chain of uploading my resume.

Two of my friends are getting married and asked me to stand up. I'm excited and terrified at the same time. These particular friends are known for being a little crazy. Oh and one of them just found out she's pregnant so she's going to wait until the baby is born to get married. It's one big facepalm to me, especially the bridesmaid dresses. I don't know how to be a good bridesmaid. I guess I'll learn, but most of the time I just want to be a guest. Le sigh. Okay that's all for now. Mucho love.

Okay here's a list of what I remember them playing and random factoids:

• They opened with Paranoid.They rose out of the stage and onto a rotating platform! A lot of them were wearing a leather jacket and skinny jeans, as I remember. Apparently their suit phase is over lol. Joe is too skinny but he has nice muscles and Nick isn't overweight but his butt was kind of prominent because of how tight the jeans were >.>
  
• Within the next two songs was "Poison Ivy" which made me ridiculously happy. There were jets of green smoke that came out around the stage. This is the same song that my camera died. Go me.
• They said that Allstate Arena was the first show that they had ever sold out when they first started touring and that we'd done it again because we're awesome.
• They sang some random older songs too, like Year 3000, That's Just the way we Roll, Play My Music and that one that Joe sings from Camp Rock. "I need to find you" or some crap. It still pisses me off. Anyway they were on a raised platform for that one.
• Nick did some solo stuff at the piano and talked about diabetes. Nobody could hear much of what he was saying because the girls were screaming so loud. All I remember is him being like, "Don't ever let it slow you down. Has it ever slowed me down?" *SCREAMS* "I SAID HAS IT EVER SLOWED ME DOWN?!" *screams nooooo* Black Keys and When You Look me in the Eyes were pretty sweet.
• For Lovebug they had this circular fountain (Kevin came out with a trench and umbrella-it was so cute) that would have different shapes of water fall from it. There was a heart, the words "LOVE" and "LOVEBUG" and the silhouette of the Jonas Brothers. It was sooo cute.
• I don't even remember what song it was, but Joe and Kevin got up on this movable platform thing and there were these hose attached. At first I wasn't sure I wanted to be sprayed but it actually felt AMAZING to be soaked by the soap and stuff. The Jonas Brothers got me all wet...teehee. No picture of it though They were like RIGHT ABOVE ME.
• S.O.S, Much Better, Fly With Me, Turn Right, World War II, and Hold On were also played. I watched Joe's expression during "Much Better" since it DOES refer to his breakup with Taylor Swift and he seemed kind of nonchalant about it. Almost too nonchalant *raises eyebrow* He seemed like he was lollygagging about most of the time. That doesn't matter as much though because he's hot. But you can tell he'd be a douche boyfriend.
• Jordin Sparks came out to sing some random new song of hers and the Jonas Brothers bascially danced around her. I was so confused. I was like, "This isn't even a song they're featured in." Jordin wouldn't really dance with Kevin (sadface) but she danced with Joe a lot and touched his lips! HEY NOW. Nick kind of turned around (he was playing drums) to be like, "wtf?" but Joe was completely unphased. It was a GO WOMEN song though, so it was mostly her telling him to back off. Sheesh.
• The encore was Burning Up! I was so happy. They weren't that into it though. Kevin didn't do the S.O.S. dance and Joe didn't go on his toes during Burning Up. So sad. I don't care how many times you've done the song, this was the life you wanted, so entertain the crowd! It's two seconds. humph. Big Rob came out and he was awesome. he was a rolly, bouncy, big black man. Like in the video, lol. I wanted to give him a hug.
  
• When they first came out, Joe was over by our section of the stage and he raised part of his shirt (DEAR GOD IT WAS BEAUTIFUL) and stuck his hand up there and pretended that his heart was beating out of his chest. Was I starstruck? Psssh, no...*faints*
• Kevin had very good eyebrow movements. I know that sounds stupid, but he was really into it the whole time! He kind of became my favorite personality-wise. I'm going to have to get used to his interviewing style, but seeing him in person made me like him the best. He tried the hardest to put on a good show. Even though he's considered the "ugly brother," he's not ugly at all. He could be kind of cute in the right light
• Nick was sort of fading the whole time. Poor diabetic baby. He could be great though, even solo. The only problem is he'd probably mostly do ballads. He was sweet though. You could tell he's really serious about his music.
• At one point during the show, I think all of them looked over at Emily and me. Not positive. I KNOW Nick did and I'm like 99% Kevin did but Joe was barely even paying attention so I'm not sure on his side. None of them would really touch people. They also wouldn't take stuff the audience members were thrusting at them. There were teddy bears, a shirt, a fedora, a pink boa...etc. Who knows why these people want them to have this stuff? They can BUY it.
• All in all, a great show. But I don't think they're going to be together much longer. They seem tired, bored, exhausted, and like they're sick of their fanbase. That's a bad sign. Plus, Kevin's getting married and Nick is diabetic. Nick and Joe might be able to hold a show by themselves, but I'm not so sure.
  

Hahahahaha

This was going to be an angry post. But then...I discovered something beautiful. Hatred is hilarious. There's a couple sites... Hate Book and Craig's list hate and they made my day. I agree with most of them. I think it's fantastic. I think hatred is fantastic. Isn't that awful? lol. Just try reading some of them. It's beautiful. I mean, I may hate lots of things/people right now, but now I'm laughing my butt off because there's other people in the world being driven as insane as I am.

Ah....the comfort